noobly

I’m two quarters away from either a CS or a pure math degree, so am really looking ‘job-forward’ right now. I feel I don’t fit in inside professional environments at all and it’s been a big obstacle for me in pursuing any professional type of work. Do you have any tips?

I took almost all my classes online, and I completely dread the formalism required vs my previous jobs (logging, construction, etc). I don’t personally know any professionals like this either. I’ve been trying to read books on identity and self esteem to grapple with these issues holding me back, but I’m having a hard time, I just feel like a fish out of water. To me it signals I need to work on myself, but I don’t know how to begin feeling ‘professional’ and not alienated. For context I run a farm by myself, I talk to maybe 6 people a month in a rural area. It’s extremely intimidating to jump into applying for programming jobs for me right now and I know my self doubt is going to shine through in any interview.