lowiqengineer

I’m an L4 at Amazon and will make about $150k this year (inclusive of stock growth). My job is fine, but I constantly struggle and wrestle with the fact that my job is considered unimpressive by my peers, and that regaining a positive total compensation trajectory is difficult to impossible now (for example, my peers at Lyft and Facebook make in excess of $300k with 2 years tenure. If I get promoted within the same time period I’ll make less than $200k). In addition, seeing constant microaggressions from people that work at elite companies like Google (identifying as “Googler” on social media, bragging about the fact that they get a WFH bonus or get fancy gifts or Hawaii offsites etc) has driven me into dark places in the last few months especially. Even when I try to study and prep for interviews it weighs on me like a brick because it feels like they’re just made to be superior.

I’ve tried therapy, but it hasn’t been effective. What are good strategies to mitigate this feeling?