I'm not a phd or write a MA thesis. I'm not academic publishing papers but i find the process of deeply studying something fascinating.
I'm in the beginning of my journey and I want to build solid foundations for understanding my future craft, being good and having longevity in the industry of my choosing.
I used to dislike the self-help genre, thinking every singe book was just a BS scheme like "how to become rich", when the real answer is by writing a book about it, but these two posts[0][1] along with reading a few self-help books that helped with some difficulties in my life made me change my attitude towards the genre.
Of course i still believe the majority of the genre is deceiving crap, quick get-rich schemes. Endless articles riffing on the same points, courses, mailing-lists, few good ideas buried in 200-250 pages of fluff because the author and publisher needs it to become a book instead of a blog series, false promises, etc. But i believe there are good books out there even if they are the minority.
[0] https://blog.tjcx.me/p/how-to-read-self-help
[1] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hQB3viVFhPA Note: I'm aware the creator of this video has written a successfully sold self-help book, but i haven't read it.
I'm mentioning the above only for those who know how bad the math education is in Greece. I won't touch the rest of the system...
I had to figure out on my own the beauty and usefulness of mathematics, but my current state with the subject is awe, curiosity, but also a terrified feeling of past memories, failures and years of debilitating anxiety.