Ask HN: Moderately successful founder, diffident because I can't focus
I started a startup about a year ago making enterprise SaaS. We are moderately successful now (12K/month) with another 12k/month worth of deals very likely to happen in the next two months.
We currently operate in a niche where our software solves a very painful problem. The thing is, there are at leasts two other generalized versions of the same problem in non-niche markets which are far more lucrative, and technically easy for us to solve, but where there is a lot of competition. I tell myself we are avoiding entering that game because we need to be a force to reckon with in our niche first, but I am afraid I am just rationalizing out of fear and I am scared of expanding because I fear I am not capable of coping with the pressure / living up to what the game requires because I have a severe problem with focusing on anything for more than a few minutes.
Background: For the past decade or so, I have been struggling with a severe case of inability to focus. In grad school when I almost failed a class because of this (I also got A's in a 75% of my classes), I forced myself to go to a therapist who told me I almost certainly had ADHD and should get the officially diagnosed at a test center and take medication or therapy. I am very wary of drugs and very reluctant to open up in front of a stranger (therapist) again. So I decided to build support structures that would help me get through this. I have a very supportive significant other and have made quite a bit of progress. My productivity has improved after I quit my day job and started the startup, but I still can't focus for shit except rare hacking sessions late at night which screw up the next day. Whatever success I have experienced is attributable largely to just not giving up and trying different things until something worked. On a day to day basis, I flit from one task to another and I feel like I am doing may be 1/3rd of what a normal person would be able to do. Still, I am enjoying being able to work for myself, delivering things at are useful for a lot of people and that keeps me going.
I don't like having nagging doubts and would appreciate your help 'debugging' my thought process, fears, complexes. Feel free to ask questions, offer ideas, criticism - anything that may help solve my dual problems - an inability to focus and a reluctance to enter the big game.
Thank you.