And after being fired, I took full-time programming jobs on 3 other companies that eventually fired me and leave a very bitter experience and now so reluctant to take new jobs because I'm afraid that it would turn out to be the same fate as my past 4 work.
And everytime I got fired, I gradually lost my heart on software development.
Now I'm not finding any work and would like to start my own software company, but I'm still carrying this heavy burden of loss and failure in my heart, and just want to do nothing and lazily lay in my bed.
Any advice?