I won't be able to help my family anymore, not that where I came from, not the one I'd liked to build with my fiancee. I won't be able to provide anymore, I won't mean anything anymore as a human. The significance of an individual is already so brittle when taken out of every relationship with others that it takes very little to be left with meaning nothing at all.

> if you were unable to see nor read or if you were born in a different country will you have the same exact worries? you're probably taking for granted a lot of things in your life now that other people would fight and die for.

"Why are you complaining about your leg being cut off and bleeding, if there are people out there who were born without legs at all?" This kind of retorts go nowhere and just serve as an apathetic response to any event that can happen in life. I won't have that. I'll simply choose violence, and since nobody deserves to be hurt by anyone's else anger, I'll simply redirect it towards myself and reject the world that is going to come. That's taking action.