Let me offer a different perspective to therapy. From my experience, having access to a doctorate trained person in behavior science is akin to an advisor that a King (or Queen) would gainfully employ. For a $20 co-pays, you have access to a life advisor that would typically only be afforded by the absolute wealthiest in feudal times. Your standard of living (with your insurance) affords you nearly the same benefit that only Kings would enjoy - that's quite a jump in standard of living.

With regards to being guarded toward people you don't know,please know that therapy doesn't start this way - with a dump of your intermost secrets. It's starts with talking about everyone else in your life. Over time, report builds and this person is now a friend firmly committed to seeing you succeed.

A note on choosing a therapist -find an actual doctorate that could prescribe pills (speaks to their level of education) but prefers not to. They often state this in their bio/website, and this way you can avoid any pill pushers, while getting the highest caliber of advisor.

I wish you luck, King Adepressedthrow.