I don't know about depressed mode but I don't feel like doing anything. I don't have a teacher. I learn things myself with the help of internet. But when someone asks me to make something for them, say a computer program or a script, I feel that I wouldn't be able to do it. I just don't feel confident about anything. My situation is similiar to this [1] and this [2].
I'll try listing all my intersets and locate the things that I can do days and nights without feeling bore.
And about the organizations in India, as far as I know, they're interested in producing "quantity" and not "quality". I just can't work for a company that doesn't give a shit to quality, no matter what the work is.
Thanks for the suggestion anyway.
[1] https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=7761134
[2] https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=8710006