Are you okay? Please call a friend and talk, or 1-800-273-8255 (national suicide hotline, for US people).
If you want to talk to someone but don't have anyone to turn to, my email is this same username at endofunctor.org
Life can be hard sometimes and I know it doesn't feel like things will change, but it will pass. You will feel better.
Either way, I hope you're able to find comfort and support somewhere. I've been there, and I know it sucks. Best wishes, truly.
There are people and organisations out there who can help you find a better way of overcoming depression.
As someone who has struggled with suicide, please stop saying this.
http://suicidepreventioncommunity.wordpress.com/2010/03/05/p...
I am certainly not the only one here struggling with these kind of problems. I come to HN to distract my mind and learn new things, but it is tough when you try to get away from something happening in your life and you have to face it here. Some people don't realize how depressing some topics/discussions are and they don't realize how this can affect others already struggling with depression or other related issues. I'm sorry for asking what I asked, but I fail to understand why topics like suicide are coming up here more often.
A few people, like me, have decided to start talking more openly about depression rather than trying to maintain the appearance that nothing was wrong. I was motivated by Stephen Fry and by a few other events around the same time, including the suicide of one of my clients.
I don't think anybody understands depression well enough yet to give advice that will work for everyone. (I sure as hell am long past wanting to receive any more advice; I hate being told to talk to a professional.)
But, if you'd like to just chat about stuff for a while, my email address is in my profile. Open invitation. You wouldn't be the first. It might be better than jumping out a window.
On the balance though, I think it would be good to de-stigmatize depression a bit. People who struggle with depression shouldn't also feel alone.