Conversation with Exuma has made me realize he only learns when he absolutely needs to, while I learn when I feel like learning.
Then I can't also put focus. Because of inefficiencies in other aspect of life. I can't optimize because I am just paranoid on most things. I would love to work for myself but I do not come from a background (because of work, energy and time) where I can sustain it. Maybe I should think of ways to do it and try to find ways.
However, do you think putting 2 hrs a week on a single project for extended time will take me to places?