I don't have most answers but it seems like there are certain qualities in you that is so helpful for the way you are as a person.
Currently, I also don't like to learn for the sake of learning. I used to be love learning and knowing things for the sake of it. But that doesn't payoff in real life. What good use is knowledge when I learned only for sake of learning.
Now I want to change and it only comes from doing things and actually implementing stuff. All I could do was think and that too was flawed thinking. These days I am doing more but still I think a lot.
I want to also disregard the opinions but I feel like what value would I provide. This was one reason I stopped blogging because there are already experts in the field who are more authentic. What would my perspective bring when I will be just paraphrasing already known stuff in slightly different way.
I can understand how you are the way you are. So we have fundamentally different mode of thinking. But you have given me some ideas.
There are things I can't say in public comment and only in private conversation. It would be fun to talk with you.