Without "Spectrum Red #1" I sleep in 2 hour shifts. I consume about 0.3 gm (whole herb vaporiser) around 9pm, by 11pm I'm asleep for 6-8 hours. Most importantly, I don't wake wishing I'd died in my sleep.
Note that I'm on CBD, so I don't get "psychotic" side effects.
I also have some 30%THC Sativa that is used to get me going to do things. I can find more reason to push through pain and move more, which in the longer term reduces the impacts of pain and suffering.
I've seen what you've posted about your experience, and if I'd met you in real life I'd have told you "You know you're probably the kind of person who should never use cannabis". I've said that to a few people over the years. Eventually they agree with me. Sadly it's sometimes after they've fucked their lives irrevocably. Cannabis does not do that to _most_ people though, as they use it non-compulsively.