I understand. Hope you make it through your current difficult situation, and get to a better place. Wish you the best of luck!

I just wanted to point out that to consider yourself a failure because you're "only" making 100k is a bit ridiculous. Going by that metric, 99% of the world's population is a failure. You're not a failure. You've just fallen through some hard times. Try your best, and you'll be out of them soon enough.

Virtual hug.

One job that is a bad fit does not define you. You are probably not as bad as you think. This might not be the job that best suites you. Don't give up.