Out of curiosity: may I ask which medication are you using?
Most days I’m taking Concerta 54mg topping up with the short release (Ritalin) as needed. I never needed to try Adderall or Vyvanse as that combo worked so nicely for me. Some days I want to have finer control and just use the short release.
I cried throughout my first weeks on meds. Finally understanding how calm most people experience their brains was life changing. :)