Something that would help with composition perhaps? Music phrasing? Some book to read? Something for self learning? I wish that melodies I am trying to compose would be better in reflecting what I like in music, and I whish to figure out what is missing.

I can improvise with different chords but it is getting boring and once I try to do something more comlex it doesn't reflect what I like.

I think I am missing something basic and simple but since I had no other option but to learn myself mostly it is probable that I simply wasn't exposed to something essential in theory, something that all good composers know very whell, something that allows experimenting but in a productive way.

May be there is a book that is like a bible for all composers and I simply never heard about it?