FWIW like you I was always much better at deadlifting than squatting (my deadlift was always about 50% more than my squat). Since the pandemic, I've been using kettlebells and really been enjoying them, specifically kettlebell front squats. The weight being offset forward allows you to stay very upright and it destroys your upper back and core. Feels so good, the way I imagine squatting feels for people who are naturally good at squatting. I feel like I'm able to power through the sticking point at the bottom instead of wondering if I'll be crushed under the weight.