Maybe your are still navigating the work culture in the company/region. Try to figure out how much they expect from their employees. If it’s unreasonably high, don’t blame yourself too much. Otherwise, try to have a constructive conversation with your peers and your manager. Hope you could find someone to talk to :)

Some people, and even cultures, are more into shouting than others are. Perhaps this is just normal. I've seen it in marriages, where a non-shouter joins up with a shouter. The non-shouter thinks that things are going very badly, while the shouter wouldn't mind some shouting back in the other direction and won't take complaints seriously unless shouted.

Good luck figuring out if this is the case.