And no, there was no health crisis or adverse consequence that made it sink in. It just took a long time and happened by itself.
So it feels like 99% I'm a shallow neural network making lots of connections but 1% of the time I enter into deep neural network mode. This is probably a bad analogy. But I need to be in deep neural network mode much more frequently. I can't afford to let a whole year to go by in order for me to understand a badic concept! This is embarrassing!