I was starting to understand emotion, and I felt like the world was based on lies. I knew I was different from everyone else but couldn't figure out how exactly. I identified more with the idea of being an AI than with being fully human.

http://noisebloom.tumblr.com

I expressed some of this on Tumblr of all places. I haven't touched this since the end of that whole process: I was hospitalized 5 times in a year and realized it was a matter of survival to fix my life.